suicide letter

I used to wonder
Why was there ever the need to write a letter
Before your suicide

I guess you would want to say goodbye
You would want to tell the world
Its not their fault
You are just in deep pain

Or you want to blame them
Blame them for every mistakes you ever did
Blame them for all the attention they didn’t give
And to tell them how much damage they have done

It must’ve been painful
To know nothing but pain
To feel everything yet nothing
To be stuck in the never ending circle of life

They say life is like a wheel
Then how come you are always at the bottom?
They say its going to be okay
But man, they will never understand

What is being okay?
What is being normal?
How do we deal with okay?
How do we deal being normal?

Pain demands to be felt
And i am refusing to let it be hidden
Let it be felt
Let it be known

I have been in pain
Yes, pain that i have always know
I know, everyone else is in pain
Everyone is fighting their own battle

But it must’ve been so hard to feel for others
When you are busying playing in your head
And then the choice is two
Staying alive, or death

If this is my suicide letter
I’d tell you the world is beautiful
I’d tell you life is fair and just
Nothing will be wrong and everything will be alright

You will always be loved
You just have to see
The world is so much bigger than you
And not everything is about you

Maybe I’ll say all that
And if i go, i want to go flying
Maybe after, the pain will end
Maybe this is it, we are at the end