that's when i start hurting myself

when the pain of hurting people is unbearable. 

when i realize i screw up again. 

when i realize i'm being difficult again.  

when i realize i hurt you again. 

that's when i start hurting myself. 

i start thinking of all the times failed again and again

i start thinking you're not going to love me the same

i start thinking you're going to hate me 

i start to feel the pain of being left behind 

that's when i start hurting myself

i don't know why i can't control myself

i didn't want to loose you

i can't live without you 

but i can't force you to stay

that's when i start hurting myself

i'm sorry

i'm hurting

i'm crying 

but you're gone

that's when i start hurting myself